'Abstracted Mind' by Jina Wallwork
It doesn’t share the appearance of my mind. I feel as though I understand my own thoughts, yet I am asked to believe something different. I am expected to repeat another’s words, until they become habit. Is it enough to live life, in accordance with the words that others ask you to speak? I cannot pretend. If I did I would never fully understand my own actions, because they would be far removed from who I really am. I have explained my mind in complete detail. There is little room for another to complete the picture, as they choose to see it. My mind is clear, yet I am still being asked to think differently. I am being asked to change for another and they cannot see the casual insult within the request. Asking my mind to become distorted and deformed into something completely different. To become something they believe is more appropriate, given the circumstances. To fake beliefs that would be more comfortable for those around me. To be given another’s thoughts and asked to conform. I have no desire to replicate another’s mind. I enjoy hearing the thoughts of those around me, but I have my own mind. I do not require another.