Monday, November 21, 2011

Direction

'Direction' by Jina Wallwork

Life, I imagine you to be many things. I have desires, expectations and dreams. I have a mind filled with plans and destinations. I wish to forge my own destiny from my actions and choices. I believe that I know what my life should be. Am I the creator, do I know what makes me happy? Can I avoid sorrow? I want to choose my own direction and navigate towards happiness. However, I am coming to realize that the self knowledge I hold is imperfect. I travel along the roads towards my chosen destination yet the happiness I imagined is not present. I can only know my feelings when I experience them, I cannot predict what they will be. When I construct my life based on my expectations, I find myself ill suited to my own creation. Then I deconstruct what is present and look for a new road. I will cease to look at destinations as I find them so misleading. I will follow the roads that align with my inner truth. I will enjoy the journey because otherwise the destination is worthless. I will not consciously choose a direction; I will simply follow the path that feels right for me. I will not try to change or alter my life; I will seek to discover all that it can be. I will trust it, as it unfolds and it will take me to where I need to be.